Tuesday, July 15, 2008

tonight

it has been three days since i came
that is unusual for this chronic master of his own masturbation
this is why i need a cruel Woman to take away my orgasms from me
i am way too reckless with them
i dont deserve them
when they are removed, then arousal is a slap in the face
it is something that happens upon your body
wanting its presumed inevitable release
only to be surprised each and every time by a reminder of its denial
a talisman of her doing
a whiff of a promise that she might offer her control of me
and if i were to cum tonight...i would feel that possibility less likely
because how good could a slave be that cannot control himself?
the problem is it makes the lust that much brighter
and my desire to obsess
to be forced to obsess
to be offered the singularity of purpose...arousal through the fixation of her
an aspect of her per day...fetish du jour
its idea sustains me through hours of stroking
on edge and dripping
ever so close...oh so many times
now that i have expressed it...how do i end it
in truth to the spirit of this confessional?
or the weakling that i am?

1 comment:

Sir said...

I have read through much of your writings and have gotten quite aroused. Beautifull work!
Still, you deserve a firm hand that will really push your limits. Most slave boi types get so lazy after they cum.
BTW .. have Emancipator invite me to view his blog. He visited mine and left a comment but no way to see it